We Can Rebuild It . . .

I'm considering relaunching this blog as something more along the lines of the adventures of a college drop-out. After numerous attempts at finishing college, success has eluded me. Now I'm twenty-seven, work and live at a self-storage facility in Akron, Ohio. I spent nine years in the grocery business. My dreams of writing a best-selling novel has manfested in piles of Star Trek and He-Man fanfics.

Wow. That's depressing.

I can't say I'm happy with all the decisions I made. I try not to regret my life after high school, as I can't sit here and tell you that I didn't try and that I don't have anyone to blame for myself. Too many negatives there. Sorry.

Let's try this again.

I think that the idea of never finishing college will always haunt me. It's kind of a complex issue. I never had the opportunity to live in a dorm and do college-y things. I never got to learn the things I always wanted to learn. I live a life of financial instability and with the constant hope that something will happen that will boost me up to the next step.

But this is moot at this point. Let's be honest, I have no one to blame but myself when it comes to college. I was never able to prioritize it. I was never able to devote the kind of focus I needed to have on it. Part of that was my ADD and part of it was just me. Will I ever go back? I dunno. I can't afford it anymore. My wife tells me she wants to go back . . . but that determination seems to last about a week before it goes quiet and nothing gets said for another two months when we have a big, dramatic conversation about it.

Oy, but let's focus on me, huh?

Anyways, so I'm not pleased with myself in the college world, but it's not like I'm living the bad life. I have an apartment that I don't have to pay for (I did take a significant pay cut though), so as long as I have a job, I have a roof over my head. I have a job that has generally "okay" benefits. And hey, I'm getting some office experience, right? That'll help me when I finally get that mail room job I'll be gunning for in 8.5 years. ;)

I like this, actually. We're in it now and you're stuck wth me. Read this blog and know what happens when you drop out of college and need to wallow in your nerdiness to keep yourself feeling better. Read this blog and know what it is to be happily married, even if your backyard is the space between a golf cart garage and the first building in a self-storage property.

Read this blog and know the good life.

It'll make you do your homework.